Happy father's day to me.

It was tradition in the family for boys to be treated misleadingly, spoiled, overshadowed by lovely figure called mom. I still remember when I was little, I used to tail my mother footsteps by grabbing the end of her skirt - anywhere, everywhere she went, talk by repeating her words like a parrot, and so to speak, I was well-brought-up accustomed to her style.

Years after years, the small boy has now, grown up into an adult man. According to a popular belief, this kind of man is called as a mummy's boy - lack the quality of real man, independent, or even worst, cannot maintain a healthy partnership with a woman. Despite of public's judgmental, I personally think that a mummy's boy, on contrary, has an advantage of treating his wife the way he treated his mother, with full of love and respect.

Before I got married to my wife, Dayah, I was deeply  ingrained with the stigma of being a mummy's boy. There were to much of what if I.....what if I....what if I.....  The biggest question that I have to endure was; how I am going to juggle my life as a husband and dad?

To cut this long story short, we had our first baby, Azkiya a year after the marriage. Being a young parent, I have no first hand experience on taking care of baby, and it was even worst when I have to take care my (another) babies (namely Mycobacterium tuberculosis) at the lab in the mean time. My wife is now, a medical officer, but Azkiya was born during her housementship (HO). The life during HO was really suck, but my wife was very patient/passion with her job. Most of the time, my wife will completely turn into zombie  mode as soon as she reached home after work.

I have to take care my baby on my own. I am missing the moment when Azkiya was came down with flu, and had difficulty to sleep. I firmly cuddled her on my chest and tried to put her into sleep by humming songs that I have forgotten, until both of us fell asleep.

The life during that time was not easy, but I enjoyed every moment of it. The bitter, sweet, sour, salty are the tastes of life as a father.

Happy father's day to me.